…….when I belong deeply to myself and seek refuge in myself. There is so much more growth ( mental, emotional) . I question my actions, deeds and behavior. With this quest and process I get closer to knowing myself. Helps me better myself, plus correct past mistakes and learn from it. It’s kind of introspection.
After which comes acceptance. To accept my negatives gracefully which is not easy. Once I accept what I am , how I am. Damn!! No one can really break me in anyway (and my dear reader friends this is shelter in true sense). Wherein I grow securely, strengthening my positives and eliminating my negatives.
Discovering the real measurements of myself has nothing to do with numbers and statistics given by others.
But when I seek refuge in a source outside I become dependent in a way. At times I become like or used to the source. At times I’m over powered by it probably. (In this process we may lose our own identity, which is really sad guys). It just leads me, it doesn’t lead me to anything. A hiding place is most of the time a dark place and not a very good place to be in.